Melissa began writing an article for TeenVogue Magazine about her experience
with Melanoma. After her death, her colleagues found it on her hard drive. Her
story is below, in her own words.
January 12, 2001. I’ll never forget that date. That was the day that I
found out that I had malignant melanoma – and my life was forever changed.
I remember being called back to my dermatologist’s office after I’d
had a small mole removed from my shoulder, leaving work mid-day with some worry
but no concept of the road that could lay ahead for me. To put it short, I
had no idea what I was in for.
Thus far at age 26, I’d lived a perfect existence. Minus your typical teenage
insecurity and 3 years of braces, I had it all - a wonderful family that all
my friends envied, a great college experience at Notre Dame, and an exciting
life in Hoboken. I’d found a career in advertising that I loved and a social
life that my other friends in other cities couldn’t get enough of. I was
everyone’s entertainment with my stories of dating in NYC and relating
at the Jersey Shore.
And tanning…yikes the tanning. I loved to sit in the sun as a teenager
and in the summers on the beach at the Jersey Shore. Call it relaxing, call it
therapeutic, but there has always been a peace for me about sun tanning. I wouldn’t
call myself reckless about tanning – but I love to be tan as most females
do. Also, like most females, I would dodge the articles in magazines about the
risks of tanning – thinking skin cancer would never happen to me. I live
in NY, not Florida and have no family history of melanoma, so what were the
odds, right?
On January 12, 2001, my light-hearted existence came to an abrupt end. It had
to. I fought the seriousness of the situation, wanting to believe that this
would go away like the common cold. But it didn’t. Rather, I remember
my new oncologist telling me that this would be a marathon. My family and I
found out
that the melanoma had progressed into my lymph nodes in my underarm, that I
had to have surgery and consider post-surgical treatment.
So quickly, everything seemed to get worse and worse. Each “toss up” we
lost – and no “gamble” went my way. Suddenly my life was full
of appointments to various doctors and tests and scans and more tests…that
it all became so overwhelming. Nothing like this had ever happened to me, nor
to any family members. Even my father, himself a physician, was lost for words
on how to handle what was happening. But, somehow we pulled through…
Melissa never actually finished writing this essay before she died. Her
sister, Maribeth, later finished the article from her own perspective – as a physician
and sister. Her piece was ultimately published in TeenVogue to help young woman
understand the dangers of the sun. An excerpt from her piece tells the rest of
Melissa’s story
It was almost a year after her initial diagnosis, just around Thanksgiving,
when we found out that Melissa’s melanoma had spread. She called
me one night because she was having trouble talking. It was as if her
tongue
was paralyzed.
I told her to get to an emergency room immediately, feeling completely
helpless from my home in Washington, DC. My brother and parents met her
in the emergency
room and were there when the doctors told them that Melissa had a seizure
because of a tumor in her brain. The melanoma was back. Again, I hopped
a train to
get
home to be with her.
From that point on, Melissa’s battle with melanoma was a blur of surgeries,
radiation and chemotherapy. I came home to be with her as often as I could, and
would stay with her in the hospital each time she was admitted. I’d try
to sleep in the recliner chair next to her bed, but would oftentimes push her
over in the middle of the night and make her share the bed with me the way we
did when we were kids. I was always so amazed by her resilience. She’d
go into the hospital for brain surgery, and be on the phone two days later talking
to her business clients from her hospital bed. I don’t think very
many of her friends and co-workers even knew how serious her condition
was because
she was so incredible at bouncing back.
Feeling so far away, my husband and I decided to move to New York to
be closer to our families. I was pregnant with my son when we moved.
Melissa embraced
my pregnancy and could not wait until the baby was born. She stayed with
me in the
delivery room while I was in labor, wiping my forehead, cheering me on
and encouraging me to be strong. Always the inspiration to me, we decided
to
ask her to be my
son’s Godmother and of course, she accepted.
It was shortly after my son’s christening in the fall of 2003 that we learned
that Melissa’s cancer had not only spread to her brain, but to
more lymph nodes, her liver, and her spine. Her doctors started her on
more chemotherapy,
but we knew it was only a matter of time. Three days before Christmas,
she was admitted to the hospital because she was very weak. On Christmas
Eve,
she
slipped
into a coma and died two days later. My family was with her when she
passed, each holding her hands and hugging her. It was very peaceful
and full of
love. I feel blessed to have been with her.
I know now that as a pediatrician, I have to make a difference. I cannot
let my sister’s death be in vain. Parents need to know how to protect their
kids against the sun and its harms. Since Melissa has died, I’ve
decided to change my career path to try to be a louder voice for melanoma.
I figure
that by telling people her story and making them understand how awful
a disease melanoma
is, maybe more deaths can be prevented. This is the best way I can think
of to honor her memory.
I still have a hard time believing that she’s gone. We were apart so much
during college and my medical school, that most times I feel like I’m going
to see her again the next time I go home to visit my parents. But, at least once
every day, I think about dialing her phone number to tell her something, and
remember that she’s not here. Every night during our bedtime prayers, my
husband and I pray with our son for his “Aunt Missa”, and as I lay
him down to sleep, I ask her to watch over him, to love and protect him from
heaven. She isn’t just his Godmother anymore; she’s his guardian
angel.
-Maribeth Bambino Chitkara, MD